My Exciting Life

Ya, it's me again, Margaret. My life is so exciting that I just write about my daily baths and meals. :) Well, they are exciting. Each day is such an accomplishment, especially now.

Adam came down today to check out my leaks, etc. I was thrilled when he remarked that I'm doing "much better" than when he brought me home. He thought I was getting around a lot better. Now THAT made me feel GREAT! I am improving! I knew I was, but it was good to hear it from someone else.

Today I exchanged my new printer/fax/scanner machine. While Adam worked on caulking my window and all, I moved the old one out and new one in. They're light, just awkward, but I did it! I even got the new software up and fax working. Loading was slow and one time I'd done the wrong thing and had to undo and redo, so that took longer. But by the end of the day, I'm back in business. I am not technical, so it's always exciting when I can do something like that on my own. I hate doing that stuff, but you do what you have to do...when you have to do it.

Ron, my vet who is back-up for my horses came by to check on me. I was glad he did. He's a great vet and friend and has been very supportive of me always, especially through this. What a wonderful family he & his wife are! Anyway, he gave me hope. He's very smart about illnesses given he's a Vet plus I think because he's had illness in his family with his brother and dad. He just seems to know a lot about the human body. Maybe you learn that in Vet school, who knows. Anyway, Ron told me that it's too soon and that nerves can do funny stuff and that they heal slowly. I've heard that before, but he said that he thinks there can be some good changes. He told me to not give up yet. I don't know. He could have a good point. I don't want to give up hope. I keep saying things will get better. But given Ron's seen nerve damage, etc., and improvements, I'll hold on to that. It's just that when I asked the doctors about reversing, they all said they'd not seen it. They weren't being pessimistic, they were just being honest.

Nevertheless, I am hanging on to hope. I continue to think of that lady in the news right when I went into the hospital, who was dead for 17 hours. Her family were making funeral arrangements and rigamortus (sp?) had set in. She came back to life!!!! I keep thinking if God can work that miracle, if it's in His good plans for me, He can cause my nerves to regenerate.

I have forgotten all about my cancer. My numbers were OK before, though there was some inching up in my M-spike and IGG. Who cares now? I wonder what will happen through all this if I need to go on some kind of treatment? More side effects. Oh well. I'll deal with that IF it comes along. God always provides.

In the meantime I'm enjoying the small pleasures. I always worked so hard. I hated leaving for work every day. I love home. I LOVE it. I never get bored just being home. I love being with my pets, my books, my pc. I love being cleaned up and cuddled in bed reading and watching my FoxNews. I'm doing all that. I'm not gardening and not sure I'll attempt that like I thought I would. But still, there's these pleasures. Relaxing. Something I never was able to do all these years. Home. Relax.

I'm still having my cereal with banannas and toasted bagels & cream cheese with coffee/cream/sugar for breakfast. I just love that breakfast for some reason.

I had a baked potato with sour cream, butter, and cheese tonight. Another thing the hospital made really well: baked potatoes. I need new potatoes now, though. Mine are old and tasteless now.

Maybe tomorrow I'll go to the store again. I already need more milk (just got 4 half-gallons but four days ago??) See, I do love my milk. Well, I think I have one half-gallon and then a little of another one. But, I can go through it in a day, easy.

I'm making myself hungry. I may have to make a chicken sandwich from the Price Chopper rotiserrie chicken and a big glass of milk. I like mayo and sweet pickles on my chicken sandwich. Yummy. I'm spoiling myself something rotten. And....I think these steroids are helping my appetite.

What a life. ;)